Doing 'me' isn't as easy as I make it look - PT.DEUX.

Okay sooo.. Back to me doing me,
I do me because at the end of the day, no one else is gonna look out for me, or do me how I would do me. I don't need friends & I definately don't need a boyfriend. I'm good all on my own. Beyonce said it best, "me, myself, & I.. that's all I got in the end. And it ain't no need to cry, cause from now on, I'ma be my own best friend.." All this "I FUCKS WITH YOU" bullsh*t is deaded, period. I ain't cool w nobody, don't wanna be cool w nobody. I may speak outta respect, but that don't mean I fuck with ya.

And to all these little girls running their mouths about me, just know at the end of the day.. I'M BADDER THAN YOU, I WILL TAKE YOUR BOYFRIEND, & I'M WAAAAY FLYER THAN YOU. All this poppin' off while I'm not around isn't even the move! Like, if you bold enough to say something while I'm not around, be bold enough to take the heat for it when I confront you. It's '09 & I'm playing ZERO games. It's QUIET for all that useless bullshit..

When I do it, It's DONE.. Buhhleee dat.
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Doing 'me' isn't as easy as I make it look.

Smh, I been on my solo-dolo ish lately. I been gettin' my own CHECKS & I been spending my own money. There is no [WE] in [ME], so therefore, I'ma continue to do me, & leave everyone else alone. I'm enjoying my alone time right now. Smh, I have nothing else to write... GOODBYE!

Current song: Boyfriend #2 by Pleasure P.

When the pretty girl shoots, she's gonna aim for your heart <3

LMAO, now that's real shit. Hahahahaha. And it's soooo true. Seriously. Pretty girls break hearts od. But so do cute boys. Damnit. It sucks. But it be like that sometime. I don't try to break hearts, I don't like getting my heart broken, but sometimes, it just happens. Dunno how or why. I wish I did. I wonder why guys can't stay committed & why they lie? Hmmph. Kelsie said it best, "Niggas lie, so i lie to 'em back. He hate to see me cry, so he throw me a stack!" BOW BOW! Lmao, I'm hella hypeeee.



But today was a rllllly good day. I cut my hair & absolutely love it!! I chopped it OFF, a little above my shoulders. Everyone loved it. New hair, new attitude. Attitudes like fuck it, but I still humble myself (: [[Shaun taught me that]]. I acted as the new girl today. I came home & had to film for my show. It was verrrry intresting today. Mainly because I had no energy & I forgot I was filming, soo I just said whatever rolled off my tounge, LOL =X oops. I'm beggining to be happy again! Thanks to Bigggz, he's the best! Sas annoyed the hell outta me today, but he'll always be my best friend, I love that boy. Rika, show him some love girlll! Anyhoo.. the weekend is here, & I've got a fabulous one ahead of me, hahaha. Keep your eye on me & my girls* we got something planned & you know you can't help but to wanna know what it is. TOO bad, you're gonna have to wait til' saturday. BAHAHA.

iTunes is currently playing; Murder by Trey Songz.

Ciao for now (:

- M <3

Sometimes, words do mean more than actions .

Today, my mom told my brother & I to be careful what you say when you're mad at a person, because whether it's good or bad, you can never take back what you said. Knowing me, I say hurtful things when I'm upset. I say things to get under a persons skin. But when it's flipped back on me, I don't know how to act.

Recently, someone hurt me verbally & mentally. Someone I loved. Someone who I thought I could trust. Someone who was my everything & so much more. They said the most hurtful words. I've never even seen this side of this mysterious person. He's never been a disrespectful person, his mom raised him better. Maybe because he was hurt, he felt the need to lash out in this way. But that just goes to show that he needs to learn how to handle anger & pain. As I was talking to my best friend, I realized it hurt me more because I was in love with the person. Had it been just any random person, I probally wouldn't have cared. But because this person meant soo much to me, I kinda lost my mind & manners. Theres nothing I can do to justify the situation. I just have to remain positive about everything, no matter how bad it gets.

Mistakes, mistakes, mistakes. Just yesterday, I had a conversation with my cousin, Shaun. I told him that I didn't know why I did half the bad things I did. And I came to the conclusion that I do it out of impulse. When you're going through a lot, you just do things to get attention when you feel you aren't getting enough. And maybe that's what happend to me. I got all the attention, I was the center of attention, in the most negative way. Now I hate it. I hate that I craved so much attention because now I'm the center of attention. And usually, people would love that. But I hate it. It's like, whenever I go somewhere.. people are waiting for me to do something because I'm known to be the girl that's always up to something. Smh. I've lost so much by wanting all the attention. Now I know not to do things to draw attention to me. If being real, real lowkey means no attention, then that's what I'm gonna do..

Currently Listening to : Jamie Foxx - INTUITION cd.

That's all for now.
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